Inner conflict. There are said to be 3 versions of ourselves in Psychology. The self we show to other people, the self we think we are, and the self we actually are. This portrait shows the natural state we are in where we doubt ourselves and constantly fight our inner demons before our version of our 'self' rises. In working for myself I am constantly fighting fear and doubt. Am I good enough. Am I worthy enough. Are people laughing at me etc.. I wanted this self portrait to show the feeling of one sidedness that this conflict feels like most of the time. TL;DR Negative emotions on one side. Me on the other fighting them.